I promised I would discuss this year's gifts and so I will: -Cash + Gift Cards = $560 total -Ed Hardy Converse -Black Uggs [my second pair of Uggs] -Video Camera -Starbucks coffee & cookie set & a Starbucks gift card -A lot of clothes; A lot of shoes; A lot of make-up; A lot of perfume -A Fasion sketchbook -Books =/ -Jewelry -More, but I really don't feel like going through it all;
&& Now a little survey so you can learn more about me, the blogger.
*** FAVORITES:
Movies: Breakfast at Tiffany's, John Tucker Must Die, Twilight, 7 Pounds, Sex and the City,
Music: Boys Like Girls, All Time Low, Justin Timberlake, Jojo, Pussycat Dolls, Colby O'Donis, Coldplay, The Cool Kids, Cute is What We Aim For, David Archuleta ['Crush' only], Danity Kane, Elliot Yamin, Evanessence, Fall Out Biy, Fergie, Hellogoodbye, Katy Perry, Lil Wayne, Marques Houston, Metro Station, Paramore, Pink, Jesse McCartney
Tv Shows: The Starter Wife, The Secret Life of the American Teenager (stupid but addicting), Family Guy (I'm so serious), Still Standing, Reba, Rita Rocks, House, Scrubs, Grey's Anatomy
Christmas Eve with my dad's side of the family was fun; && Painful.
Not-So-Fun Things Which Happened to Me on Christmas Eve -Spilled water on myself, on the train which made me look like I peed; -Fell down a flight of stairs -Got really bad heartburn [But the food rocked]
But today is Christmas morning and it is amazing amazing!! I got pretty much everything I asked for and we havn't even gone to my grandmothers house yet, where everyone get's together. And my mother and sister both loved all the gifts I got them; I'll tell you what I got tomorrow and whenever I have a chance.
I went to sleep at 4:30am, and woke up at 8am, but I'm not even tired, which is good I guess. But tonight I'll pass out. So, I'm going to go eat breakfast and leave soon;
Hope your holiday is great and everything you want it to be <3=)
I'm done shopping. I swear, today was the last day. I admit, I have a problem.
Ha;
Anyway, the New Years party is off, just a few of us hanging out instead; Mainly, because we have to plan an amazing suprise party for my friend whose birthday is the day after Christmas; Aside from that we have an awesome idea: Masquerade Valentine's Day Party; No huge ballgowns but the masks, will make it amazing;
I got a few gifts from my friends today, which I loved; especially the gorgeous earrings one friend got me. So, I have dance right now, so I'll chat soon, k?
Christmas break is here ! Thank you ; Thank you ; Thank you;
The holidays will be amazing; food, family and gifts; But when I have some free time I'm working on the most amazing party ever; My friends and I are hosting a New Years Party && it'll be sick, of course.
School took forever today; it went so slow; On the up side I wrote a new song during biology; It's called For the Record;
And one of the guys I like is looking hotter then ever, and his friends keep looking at me; so could be a sign? Maybe? Probably not, but whatever. LoL.
On a serious note, I really wanted to bring up the topic of Child Abuse; It's sickening how many cases of child abuse have been brought up this year. It would be sickening even if it were only one case of it. I honestly have no idea how you could hit or neglect your child, for your own pleasure or anger issues.
The "Prevent Child Abuse - America" said that only about 47 out of every 1000 abused children are reported. Children are supposed to be nourished and loved and it's so unfair how many of them don't ever get to have that.
This song makes me cry every time; R.I.P Little Angels,
--Our Tree [Only now there's an insane amount of gifts under it;
I really can't stay - Baby it's cold outside I've got to go away - Baby it's cold outside This evening has been - Been hoping that you'd drop in So very nice - I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice My mother will start to worry - Beautiful, what's your hurry My father will be pacing the floor - Listen to the fireplace roar So really I'd better scurry - Beautiful, please don't hurry well Maybe just a half a drink more - Put some music on while I pour
The neighbors might think - Baby, it's bad out there Say, what's in this drink - No cabs to be had out there I wish I knew how - Your eyes are like starlight now To break this spell - I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell I ought to say no, no, no, sir - Mind if I move a little closer At least I'm gonna say that I tried - What's the sense in hurting my pride I really can't stay - Baby don't hold out Ahh, but it's cold outside
How's the weather?
Well, it's snowing, raining and hailing all at once;
It has been all day; and it's finally stopped but chances are it'll start back up again. This morning there was literally no snow on the ground and now it's covered, completley;
Now picture this; I'm wearing a small little uniform skirt and tiny little shoes; which didn't exactly protect me when I fell into a deep puddle. Since our principle is so nice, around 1:00 he told everyone we could leave, and cancelled the rest of class, That was awesome.
Once we got outside it was pretty much the entire school in one snowball fight, which you couldn't escape from.
But in all honesty, it was sooo much fun;
Snow just is the perfect touch to the holiday season,
Since we had time off, my friends and I went shopping and I still picked up a few more gifts, even though that's all I've been doing lately;
Then we went for coffee and hot chocolate -> thank god.
Oh && Also; Curry is now one of my top 10 favorite foods;
The family went out to eat and it was amazing amazing <3=]
Hmmm...I've also been messing around with some song recordings; maybe recording the demo in a few months; I might post some clips eventually; just for you all;
Because I got a chest cold, sore throat and earache;
The events which led up to this, however, were great, so I have no regrets.
Last night, my best friends and I hung out around Rockefeller Center and the Christmas tree; and ate sandwiches, soup and hot chocolate; We also took an obsessive amount of pictures, not to mention it was the first snowfall of winter, which just made it perfect.
Who cares if it's freezing, this is my favorite time of year!
My little sister just did this cutest but saddest thing; In her school, she has one of those little fairs where the parents give you money and you can buy things for your parents; Anyway, she bought my mother a glass vase, which she took out of her bookbag and found out it had cracked. Anyway, she just started crying, saying how she really liked the vase and really wanted to give it to my mom; && I felt sooo bad, so I was all "Don't worry, sweetie. That's what super glue is for". And we fixed it; =)
Aside from all the holiday jamble, I really love having older guy friends; Like half my friends are junior guys; and they are hot; I'm a sophmore. Bad news? All the teachers are already talking about SAT's; and you know what? My grades, I'm starting to realize, might not cut it. And it's all college this and future that, and I am so so so so scared about not getting into college, but then it's like, there is no way I can't get into even one, but I'm still freakishly freaking. So I'm going to go drink hot coco and study and study and study and study.....
>>>Snaps for my mommy, who just got a promotion at work; Everybody was congrtualting her at work, and she had no idea what they were talking about until she got to her office and her boss was waiting there to tell her;
They also gave her a humongous basket of bagels,cookies and danishes. =) Honestly, I've eaten about 2 1/2 bagels since yesterday, which sucks considering I'm trying to lose 8 pounds by Christmas.
Anyway, let's talk about boys; Some of the boys talked about now may be one of those mentioned before;;
BOY A: Used to like him; but not so much, over him; but now for some reason he isn't talking to me, which I hate; because I hate when I think people are mad at me.
BOY B: Guy in my class, who is so cute and always smells like RL cologone; I've been talking to him more, but there is no way he thinks of me more than a friend.
BOY C: This older guy in my school who is in like two of my classes and keeps flirting with me though he really isn't my type whatsoever; I just want to be friends;
I've been gift wrapping all morning [Almost the Holidays, yay!] && I'm about to go get my nails done with my best friends, even though when I do I end up messing them up somehow like 10 minutes later;
What else is going on in my life? I'm auditioning for a play for a community theater, where i've seen plays. I wan't to be an actress/singer so my mother says I should "Get out there", and she is right...unforutnatley. Ha. && another thing; We just saw a video in school; as in a video of a baby being born; You see E V E R Y T H I N G. Awkward? Yes. Gross? Definitley. Slightly mortophying and something that might scar me for life? You can bet on it.
So I'm going to go && I'll post more soon, definitley. Seriously. I'm not lying.
Have a fun weekened && I hope you're holiday plans are starting to fall together=]
It's been some days since my last post; Sorry, I was on a short vacation out of state;
I was supposed to go to school today but my plane came in around 2am, so my mom decided to let me and my sister skip and relax; Plus, this vacation wasn't exactly relaxing, but it was fun.
Right now it's 8:50 so nothing exciting has happened, but there are re-doing the sidewalk and cement on the street across from mine and the drill is driving me insane; My sister is basically deaf when she is sleeping so I guess she's lucky.
On a positive note, I got a lot of Holiday shopping done and our tree and house are fully decorated though I could probably find a way to add more...somehow.
In other news: Does anybody else hate having absolutley gorgeous friends? I mean, I love them, obviously. But it's like everywhere we go heads turn to them. But whatever; It's highschool.
Later loves; I promise, my life will be become more interesting. Ha.
I hung out with my friends until 11 on Saturday and it was crazy-fun; Taking stupid pictures, crazy videos and just being random.
But I just wanted to let everyone know that I officially approve Britney's new cd; You can hear the whole thing on Youtube. Sure, some song arn't amazing but it's really great; && I love the song Unusual You;
Isn't it annoying, when you don't do anything, then something happens and it automatically turns to you? This happen all of the time, with my mother and my sister, who are both equally annoying.
It happens often, but here is an example of what happened a few minutes ago. My younger sister decided to make Easy Mac in the microwave but she is oh-so lazy she can't even read the directions on a packet; She asked my mother for help, and she said she would in a minute. My sister of course decided to try and cook it anyway and messed it up completley. Then my mother starts yelling, [talking loudly] to me for not helping her. I don't know. It's just annoying.
Thanksgiving yeserday was amazing; There was way too much food. It was basically twice the amount we needed; But it wasn't boring;
Christmas still owns all of course; Only about 8 of us get together for Thanksgiving; For Christmas it's minimum 20;
Anyway, I'm about to head out and get some shopping done with my friends; Which makes it really hard since we also need to shop for eachother, but.... I also have to buy a gift for my bestie's bday tomorrow && I always get the best gifts. It's known; ask anyone.
Yeah, wen't to sleep at like 2am last night, so I've been bumming all morning; watching Christmas movies; Later Loves;
I've come to realize how true that saying is. As much as I love getting gifts, it's so much funner and satisfying for me when I get to give gifts to other people;
And it doesn't even have to be someone you know.
Each year around Thanksgiving we have a half day and my school collects money, and then the day before Thanksgiving, which is today,after 12, we cook up a ton of food in the cafeteria; Turkeys, potatoes, stuffing [We hit 300 pounds this year], cookies, hot chocolate;
Each cafeteria table is like a mini assembely line; and everyone works hard to cook up this huge meal; Then on Thanksgiving, those who can make it wrap the large pots in blankets to keep them warm and go around giving food and cards to the less fortunate; After the food is gone, they even give the blankets away; I, sadly, won't be able to go see the looks on their faces tomorrow.
But in a weird way, I still feel happy. And I don't mean happy as in a self-centered, "Wow, look at me. I'm such a great person", kind of way; You just start thinking about how you made someones life a little bit better, if only for a little while. For once, those people are having food given to them and shown that there are people who do care; && though it's hard to belive a pair of adorable Manolos would never give me the same warm fuzzy feeling, though they are gorgeous and I would love to get them :)
I guess you could say I wan't to be one of those people who help the world; I'm against animal testing, save the rainforest, etc, etc. I won't bore you with my opinions. lol
So I started thinking how unfair life is to some people. I must admit I am lucky; I get to wake up Christmas morning in a warm house, with nice clothes, and presents waiting for me, while some people only occasionally have a home, old clothes and nothing for them. And so I've decided to start a new charity;
I'm going to collect gifts and gift packs; I was thinking for teens/kids, a book, new clothing, snacks,etc. I'd actually wrap them up and everything; I just wan't to show them I care.
Okay, okay. Let's get off the charity topic for a few; I started feeling really sick a few hours ago. I hope to god it's not the flu, considering many students and a few teachers caught it at my school, even though I did get the flu shot. Feel a little better but still rather blah;
My mother also took it upon herself to cook Thanksgiving dinner this year for our entire family, which of course means my sister and I must help; I love to cook though, so that's not a problem. But she was looking at all these recipes and couldn't choose, so she went a little crazy. She is making four different deserts. F O U R; Cuatro And only 14 people are going to come, so.....Day-After-Turkey-Day-Sandwiches for everyone!!
LOL
&& I just heard that song Four Walls by Teddy Geiger for the first time in a while. So old, but I remembered how much I loved it; So here it is....
I know I already posted today; But I really just needed to vent.
Do you ever feel like life...is just crazy? I mean, I think back to when I was a kid and maybe it's the whole childhood innocence thing, but I just remember being happier; Does everyone feel that way? Not to say that I'm not happy now, but, as cheesy as this sounds: Being a kid was just fun; the skies seemed bluer, the grass seemed greener, and there were those warm summer nights you would sit on the block with your friends watching fireflies fly around as you tried to catch them; of course we always let them go. I'm not sure when it happens but it does, All of a sudden you care about how you look and what people think of you and your child-like world is shattered to make way for other things; I know everyone needs to grow up and it's not like I don't want to, but I sometimes feel, as happy as I am, that I'll never be truly happy. But then I think, "Do I really know what true happiness is?". Sometimes I even cry thinking about it. And then I relax and I think about where I'll be in 10, 20 years, and how my life will be. And honestly, it scares me a little because I don't know how my life will be and where I'll be.
But it's like, when you're a kid the biggest fight you have is that the annoying kid in your class stole your red crayon; It seems like the older you get, the more backstabbing friends get; the more drama gets flopped around. And when you start getting older you start changing yourself to fit in, and to be liked. And then you start acting different with each group of people; So different that you start to not even know who you are anymore; I wish I did, but sometimes I can't even remember me. The real me.
I sometimes feel as if a dark cloud is permenantly stuck over my head or I'm trapped in a small room. And all you want to do is feel happy, and free and alive. But how exactly do you do that?
God, it's almost insane how much I'm bottling up inside me; Sorry for the rant. I just go crazy trying to hold so much thought and emotion back inside of me.
'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table No one can find the rewind button, girl. So cradle your head in your hands And breathe... just breathe, Oh breathe, just breathe
So I have this friend. && She is the kind of person who expects that if you're her friends, she and the rest of the group are your only friends;
If I even talk to anyone else she flips out yet it's okay for her to have many other friends; Now, of course I never listen to her because I have a lot of friends; It's just so annoying; It's like, you're not my only friend. We're not even best friends and she is just scary with how she always wants to be around me; Whatever, she needs to ger a life; Plus she keeps giving me an attitude and being a bitch. If a friend causes you nothing but distress she isn't a real friend.
I am so happy about thanksgiving; The one time of the year where I'll shove my face and not worry about weight gain; Okay, I worry but not as much.
Today was boring, to tell you the truth but tomorrow shall be awesomer; lol
I am so so so so happy; Why? Because we only have a three day week; Monday, Tuesday and HALF of Wednesday, So I guess it's more like a two && a half day week; Next week is also only three days, so that is amazing as well;
School wen't by so fast today, it was almost scary; Maybe it's because the holidays are just around the corner; It sucks how my favorite time of year flies by while the rest of the year is like quicksand;; but I digress.
Speaking of the Holiday season; I love it <3 From November until Februray, I'm pretty ecstatic; My mom actually decided to go all out this year on decorating our house; She thinks we need to be more festive; I may have dropped a hint. This, of course, led to her buying a white glowing model of a house which plays Christmas carols, a Large stuffed reindeer with slots to count down until the day, various nutcrackers and a whole list more; Not that I have a problem, with any of this; Like I said I love the holidays;
Not surprisngly, it's freezing here in New York; Even though NY has the most random weather it's actually been pretty much the same straight mid-30s; && it really helps that I have to wear a tiny little plaid skirt to school=/
After school, my best friend and I decided to get some coffee; A medium coffee and hash browns for her; A small coffee and Reduced-Fat Blueberry Muffin for me; Coffee is yet another important aspect of my life;
Though I should probably save a little; I still need to buy a gift for my mother [which the grandparents will most likely pay for] A gift for my sister [paid my mom], Gifts for my best friends [paid my mom, and me] And than cards and candy canes for all of my friends who arn't close enough to recieve gifts;
Anyway; About go meet my cousins at Starbucks; More Coffee ? Yes, definitley.
It is Friday; Fuh-rye-day El viernes Vendredi Freitag Venerdì Vrijdag Sexta-feira В пятницу Fredag 星期五 金曜日
&& Now that I've translated Friday into most languages; I can move on;
I guess you could say I'm a little ticked off; One of my best friends, let's call her G; was being a complete bitch; in not so many words. Even though people don't want to admit it, getting a boyfriend changes things, or maybe she was already changing; I have many best friends and she was one, and we are [were] really close and anytime one of us had a boyfriend we were pretty chill but she is being annoying; Anytime I say 'Hi' to her she just gives me a look as if she doesn't want to talk to me and has been ignoring me and a few others; trust me I'm not the only one whose noticed. Since when does having a boyfriend give you an excuse to be a ignorant person? As for her boyfriend; he is less than incredible. He'll pretty much flirt with anything in a skirt...or not in a skirt; and he does. He flirts with everyone and it's like she doesn't even care. Not to mention he has been with an O.D amoount of girls before her and I don't mean dated; I mean BJ, HJ, and more; Honestly, I don't need the drama. At least I have other friends, some of who have boyfriend and still act sane and amazing.
I'm also thinking about thinking up a mega-awesome-hard-core-workout-routine, because honestly I need to go down a few pounds and lose a few inches; It's annoying the heck out of me; Looking forward to tomorrow and spending the day with my friends; Of course it'll be fun;
Aside from what my post yesterday said; I might be crushing; It's just that I'm crushin' on three different guys; && none of them might like me; But it's not about that right now, Right now, it's about narrowing down my choices;
And so without further ado; I welcome you to... As Told By Me =D
Guy Numero Uno; He's in 2 or 3 of my classes; Light brown hair, light brown/amber eyes; We're not exactly friends, and don't talk much except for the occasional, "Do you have a pen?", "What's the homework?", and the occasional high-five when I raise my hand as a Giants fan. Plus, he has the cutest dimples and a hot voice.
Guy II: Blonde hair, Blue eyes [Hot]; Basically has the looks of a Abercrombie Model, no lie; Don't really talk to him; though he's in like 3 of my classes; He has a great sense of humor though and is always making the class and me laugh. Have talked a few times but not much; Big problem? He has a girlfriend who by the way is way too ugly for him; I'm not even joking. She has a humungous nose, skinny face, ugly hair which she glops hair gel into; and her voice sounds like a man; But I'll stop myself before I get mean =)
Guy Three: Dark brown hair; brown eyes; We are actually really good friends, but I'm pretty sure he's interested in someone else, and the chances of him liking me are slim to none; He's hilarious and has a killer smile and gives amazing hugs though.
&& Now the winner is: NON-EXISTENT Because I still cannot choose. I mean it's not like any of them are going for half-dressed type of girl considering my school in uniformed which isn't awful. The typical collared shirt, plaid skirt type dress; y'know. But still, I'm at that point in life where every boy who is cute and sweet is going to be the "one". I'm a hopeless romantic? I suppose. I need to figure out that he is just a cute boy, and his friends aren't amazing. Though this is what high school is about, right? Falling in love with every guy, and hanging out with the best ones as friends, not knowing that they are the ones you need.
Luckily, I have great friends to make me feel better in my time of need; thank god. After school, we all went over to my friend Laura's house; and took out about 5 Six-Packs of Coke; Drinking Contest, anyone?
Let me tell you something: Drinking Coke extremley fast, one after another B U R N S; But at least it was fun;
I could not be any happier that tomorrow is Friday!! I could be happier about my hair though; since I have only been begging my mother for a month to let me get my roots dyed; Hopefully, I will this weekend. In case you're wondering, I dyed my hair my natural color; Or at least it was this color before it changed, but the new color was uh-gu-ly.
It's true what I said in my first post; After Freshman year of High School, Life does get better.
While freshie year wasn't horribly awful, it wasn't great. I had a few friends, had some embarrasing moments, got over it, moved on. Sophmore Year; this year. I have tons of friends, still hated on by a few but so is everyone. && in that ton of friends are many guy friends; Friends.
I've had one boyfriend in my life; Uno. && Honestly, it only lasted a month and than it was 'Adios'.
Now, if you ask me to rate myself I'd say looks:6, personality:7. Obviously my friends tell me different but it's kind of hard to believe considering they are my friends. In the past a few guys, supposedly, have been interested in me; I doubt any are now, but whatever. The only problem I have with that, is I'm always the 2nd to best one.
There have been at least 3 guys I liked, who've I'd realized or they had admitted to liking me, but there was always another girl they liked as well, or more. And she always came first. Now once in a while wouldn't be awful but you know what? Being 2nd best all the time sucks. It really does. Especially when all my friends are either coupled up or have guys drooling over them.
Doesn't exactly do great for my self-esteem; BONUS FACT; Suffered from Ed-nos around 7th and 8th grade; Pretty much over it; Still go through moments where I don't want to eat, usually do. I eat most of the time so I don't feel compelled to say I have an eating disorder. Let the people who are actually sick have attention.
Ask anyone, and they'll tell you in college your love life picks up; I don't want to wait until college. In school, there is this guy I'm crushin' on; Problem? The most words he's said to is: "Can you get that?", when he dropped his pen in class. Even though; he sounded adorable when he said that.
Aside from that, there is more going on. Let's talk about Health. Actually, let's not; Health class takes care of that. And we talk about ev-er-y-thing, including certain things..*cough* body parts *cough*; Can you say awkward? More like hilarious.
I guess you could say this entry is my greeting to all of those who end up reading this blog; If you don't I won't be upset, I promise.
If you ask why I started a blog; the reason probably isn't uncommon. There are always days when I get through a day and by the time I get home I just want to scream, and I just wan't to break down and vent about everything that's happened. && maybe for me that's easier to do when the person, who is my vent-ee, is someone I know.
Now, this isn't going to be one of those blogs where I whine about my horrible life, because to be honest my life isn't horrible, or awful. It's just as normal as everyone's and there are good days, bad days...great days, and there are up's and down's.
And this isn't going to be a blog where I brag about how fabulous my life is, because like I said, I do have bad days.
My life isn't perfect, but whose life is, really?
Maybe, you're wondering who I am; the blogger.
Maybe not, but I'm going to tell you about me anyway.
If you're not interested there is a little red 'x' in the corner of the screen that is calling your name.
-Hitting 16 in a few months;
-High School -> Private School; my grades? Eh. A-C's. The typical.
-I have three main comfort foods: Pizza, ice-cream and cereal;
-Not a loser, don't care about the whole popularity level though;
-I have a rather large group of friends and I'm on an okay level with most people;
-Living in New York; born && raised.
-Want to to move to California, but leaving NY would be the hardest thing for me.
-I love Taylor Launter; <3
-My best friends and I couldn't be more different, but that's the best part;
-Currently a sophmore; && it's true that after freshman year, high school starts to rock;
-Listen to every type of music; from oldies to rock to rap; only hate scream-o; It's not music.
-I love hugs;
-Love rides that spin; Hate rides that drop.
-Must admit, I love to shop;
-Aside from most teenagers, I love reading.
-Yes, I watch cheesy Lifetime movies.
-Hate followers; Be your own person, don't get caught in the shadows.
-I hate people who TALK IM speak, "You're so funny, L.O.L"; no. Please stop;
-Dispise when people tYpEe LiiKee ThIs.
-I love pie && cheese. Random but true; Not together though, but like in general.
I'm running out of things to say but hopefully you'll learn more about me as time goes on;
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